Big Changes

There are big changes afoot in my life - hopefully for the best although it's hard to say where everything will net out.  After many years my best friend, along with his husband, will be leaving our apartment.  The Beaverhausen is currently looking for a new occupant although I would be lying if I didn't say that I was worried about finding somebody new.  It's a beautiful place and quite large for NYC, but it's out of the price limits for most and many people in this range would prefer to live on their own or at least with somebody that they know.

Everything was very different a year ago, when I was in love and in what seemed long a solid, long-term relationship. At that time I assumed the two of us would move into the larger apartment and that my good girlfriend would move into my space, or alternatively that we would rent the room out on Air BnB.  

Now that has all changed.  A and I broke up in July after what could only be described as a difficult 2014. I miss him and frequently wish that we could try to work it out, but there is no doubt that being in a relationship was holding him back from pursuing his dreams and I couldn't live with that knowledge.  

My girlfriend is on the cusp of moving to San Francisco to be with her boyfriend of many years and the thought of trying to facilitate an AirBnB situation on my own is daunting, never mind the legal implications.  

One could argue that perhaps it is time for me to consider moving, but I do love it here and have finally taken so many big boy steps in furnishing the space.  It would suck to have to give all of that up.

Finding a new roomie won't be easy considering the time of year and all the factors stacked against me, but for now I'm giving it a try and seeing what comes up.  

Regardless the changes will be significant and it's frightening considering the magnitude. I know I will survive but I am very curious as to what direction I'm headed a month from now.